Oh, my friends! My story is not for the faint of heart. I know that it is something that can help others and, most importantly, bring God much glory. I will share with you, in hopes that it will do these very things.
I was brought up in a very loving home. My family was amazing. Unfortunately, bad things can still slip in and harm us. When I was young, I was raped by a friend of the family. A girl, actually. It happened more than once and really changed the direction of my life. By the time I was old enough to move out, I did just that. I couldn’t wait for freedom!
What I didn’t realize, is that the freedom I sought, really wasn’t freedom at all. It was a lie. A scam. I had a couple of roommates and we were having a blast. We were living it up. At one point, a bunch of us were at the house completely wasted when I had another rape situation happen to me.
I was living a lifestyle of partying, drinking, bisexuality and complete disrespect. I thought I was free. I thought I had all the freedom in the world. Again, what a lie. God gives us rules so that we may be free, not to be a tyrant. I didn’t realize how quickly I was boxing myself in by living against those.
When I was 20 years old, I found out that I was pregnant. I was living with my boyfriend and he was furious. He said that if I didn’t have an abortion, he would make sure that both me and the child were dead. I had to go into hiding and it was the scariest time of my life. I was physically, emotionally, spiritually, and completely broken.
God, in His great mercy, provided a way of escape for me. To keep this short, I will not elaborate, but if you would like to hear more, I would LOVE to share it all with you.
I realized that His was is the way of joy, peace, love, and freedom. I learned that only in God, can we have a life that we dream of. It’s not what we expect, but He created us and knows what will truly make us happy.
He has answered my prayers and more. I wouldn’t even be alive today if He didn’t have a plan and purpose for me. He loves us where we are at. He loves us no matter what we have done and how often we have hurt Him. He is the perfect example of love.
If you are in a place that is dark, lonely, and horrible, PLEASE turn to Him. Only He can give you what you are seeking. Everything else is fleeting.
Ever want to talk? Even Anonymously? Email me at: aTransparentMom@gmail.com
If there is one thing I am passionate about, it’s about God and seeing how He rescues us. I would even love to put together a bunch of stories of rescues if you want to email them to me!! Sharing your pain can lighten your load and help many others.
If you go through something horrible, gift it a purpose. Otherwise, it’s just something horrible.